addicted to
i'm not here to win
i'm here to leave a legacy
pimple plantation - it's harvest time! (again)
it's the passion that drives you
endorphins
pain
exhaustion
chasing this insane dream
perfection
tagboard ;
guestbook
which explains my drop in effort put into the workouts
which then explains why i'm growing so darn fat
this causes a dip in self esteem
contributes to my stress level
triggers off my hormones
gives me a pimply forehead
further lowers my self esteem
irritates me
makes me want to stuff my face
makes me grow even fatter
which lowers my self esteem once again
by the time i'm through one whole day of this routine, and get to training again.
i feel so down i can't even motivate myself to put in 90%. not even ninety.. to think i used to put in 200%. on my scale that is.
i need a break. from training at least. but i can't get that. it's impossible. sigh.
the above problem will then cause me to stuff my face even more and trigger off a whole other load of effects.
okay i am delirious from stress now. so much homework and yet i am blogging. driving my self cashewnuts. illegal driving- i haven't gotten my license.
haha even if i tried to run away i'd have to stop halfway cos of my injury. how stupid is that.